HO'S

Our cast performed for the rest of the class today. I am at a loss for words, because it was somewhat horrifying and disappointing to see all our hard work amount to nothing. Many times before, Kim and I had given direction to various actors on what to do with their characters or blocking, but they have yet to remember it the next day. In a way, I am at a loss as to how much I can do as a director. I cannot tell each and every actor how exactly to block or perform their monologue because the development of character must come from themselves. The monologues that I have written in the script seem to have lost their meaning and power. I understand that a serious performance is much more difficult than that of a comedic one, but it is frustrating to see that the actors have not done their homework. Each day they come in, it is almost as though the slate has been wiped clean, and so we must start all over again. Kim and I wanted this to be a collaborative experience for the entire cast. We wanted them to contribute and feel free to alter our words to convey the message. Right now I am not sure if we will ever be able to get our actors to that place where they will understand just how powerful this piece is meant to be because right now it sounds like they are reading a book to the audience.