For the Judges

In the moments before going onstage to perform the British Arts judges, it was quite nerve wracking. It wasn't so much nervousness resulting from forgotten lines or unknown blocking, but the feeling that I couldn't portray the monologue as best as it was intended. What with my teacher's multiple reminders that I wasn't quite connecting with my character, I just kept dwelling upon the fact that it would never be good enough. So I rehearsed once or twice before going on, and well...I just performed and that was it. Since we won't be getting feedback about it until probably Thursday, I'll just have to wait and see. I have a feeling though that it won't be especially good considering that I myself realized I wasn't connecting with my character during the monologue. Three minutes isn't very much time to build up your emotions and character. There might also be a small comment about shuffling my feet, what can I say, I felt that my character would be a feet-shuffler. After finishing up the scenes from our class, we stayed in the theater to watch the other pieces. We felt like our own judges as we would confer after each piece to see who we thought would move up into the next round, and who wouldn't. I felt that a lot could be learned just from watching other people's scenes and that there really is no reason to be nervous at all.